Tuesday 29 December 2015

Home Coming and Other Poems


Cry of Blood

I cry of mercy in the face of blood
Like begging urchins


And nothing but blood
And sour memories of lost relatives

My face is the signpost
Of b-ro-ken homes and carcasses
Of hopes still decaying
Shunned atop the brink of dusty roads

I am the tears and (glory) torn
The remnant of a land
In the hand of terror
I am a homeless pedestrian-
Wretched almajiris in Nigeria
Frail orphans in Sudan and Somalia, finding solace
Beneath the loft of motorway bridges

I am the dream of Africa
Perished on the Mediterranean Sea
On the course of survival.

Last Friday In School



It was on Friday afternoon and the sun was scorching. Emran was in haste to catch up with others crowding down to the religious ground to observe their obligatory Juma'at service. He had already put on his Arab-money dress with his black shade glasses already on his face. He knew he was late already, that was indisputable. And the only way not to miss the sermon of the service to be delivered by the oratory, tall, handsome and fairly bearded, but quite simple Imam was to get his calculation right by fast-tracking his walking.


Seven feet covered away from his room he could hear someone calling. Unknown lanky man dressed in a light-blue and well-starched long sleeve shirt from the adjacent side was running towards his direction, calling. ''hey, bro, bro," the guy called. Emran looked back because he could feel the proximity of the wave of the calling scampering down his curious auricles.
"you call me?" he asked with curiousness. "yes." He moved closer to him and they both exchanged warm pleasantries. "Are you Emran?

Friday 6 November 2015

Finding The Lost Rib



“Life is a fortress of joy when you have someone to give a glimmer of hope at the end of the tunnel.”


The sky looked so cloudy as always in every night of rainy season, dense with darkness and laden with fear. I knew rain was going to fall, so I quickly finished reading the books I borrowed from the library in preparation for my last paper slated for the following week. I looked weary and my eyes already in need of sleep. Since morning I had been at Professor Jude library reading. My body besought nothing but to rest. I needed to sleep, but she had promised to call me. I didn't have any choice than to wait for her call.

Friday 30 October 2015

Guest Post: A Loss That Dares Not Speak Its Name


Guest Post by Hannah Ojo

“my name is Khan. . . and I am not a terrorist.”



How many times do we need to carry placards, run jingles on radio, use the public address system and pay for ads on TV just to reclaim our innocence? These could be moments when we want the world to know our identity and innocence so that we won’t fall into the unguarded hands of prejudice. These were times when we have to tell the world we are not all 419ners, we are not corrupt, and we are not internet scammers and we don’t do drugs. Think of the bad PR.

Tune your TV to CNN, BBC and Aljazera, what do you see? A pitiable portrayal of Nigeria as a cesspit of hell. A place where young people with energy and talents bathe in refuse dumb for survival. A place where children of school age do not attend school but rather beg for alms. On education, they say we are not there yet: our degrees are not respected so that when you leave the shore of the country to pursue studies, you need to start all over again. You are black, not tanned. Apart from racial prejudice, you are Nigerian, you are bad!

Thursday 29 October 2015

Sad Note: The Voice Of Urchin (I)




Peace beloved brother,

I write this sad note with pain that comes from the sigh of a broken heart, and I believe by the time you will be reading it, you will understand the pain of a boy born into a gutter of groan called Nigeria, my dearest nation, where dreams die before the dreamers- a cesspool of sheen talents!

I once wrote a note like this when we were together, but I still see the need to re-claim the memory of it again on the downy page where it was lost- perhaps my last note of sadness if I have victories over my anguish in days coming. I have been a victim of time that flies like hunted deer since you left home brother. You have indeed forsaken me here like cows condemned to death at abattoir.

Before this time, I had wanted to die of depression but you said no. You said trial is not the end of time. I wanted to die of solitude but you said tribulation is not the end of the tunnel. You said that life may be full of up and down, yet it is not long like nozzle of a den gun.

Now that I have waited so long for sun to rise again from my eyes, but it stands aloof like embittered enemy about to strike, I've suffered like waif and stray through the decades of rehearsed pledges. I have perused through the cantos of promises to discover my name stenciled with watery ink on the page of hope.

Like an urchin with many scars of dusted streets from Kano to Lagos, life is no more meaningful to me, except that I have fear for one thing. I don't fear gun of mad dogs in black hide called police, nor the fear of sleeping but never waking up the following day. I neither fear death anymore nor the misery in the silence of evening, what I dread most is the questioning of the grave which I have been forced to wait for all days by the entangled situation of my puzzled country. I have heard and had enough of sad stories and rejection. I have noticed the moment I take six feet forward I find myself back- where I left brother. And my happiest moments are usually in the midst of my worries and woes. I am indeed like a mere image on the page of book in a country of no clues.

I'm dying; weary of hope that never comes in time. I am going through turbulent time- the way you left me last time came home. I may not know what tomorrow holds, but I don't want to be useless like impotent penis today.

I don't want to die of fish that fails to swim through the deep side of dam. I need to tell you that I have determined to leave the sect of people looking up to crumble of bread falling off master's table, and roaming the street for their solace. Much words do not fill a loose basket my brother, teach me how to fish, or else I die with these lofty dreams ahead of me.

May God bless you as I see the sun rise from your words. Help me greet 'Damola and Bolade, Kunle and Bolaji, Rasaq and Khalid. These are my brothers we all hope everything good will come sooner.

I am still yours in pain, plight and penury in a nation of want,
M. Jalal.

Sunday 25 October 2015

Three Poems for the Road.




1. We Talk Of War

We talk of war

like evening tale of tortoise

and fable of foolish elephant

lured to the throne of ruin

with songs of pretence

We all talk of war, we wish it coming

but who has ever been to war

without scary reports of blood;

of guns and dreams of men dying

under the shadow of bloodshed?

Wars, not like cold pap, sweet on palate

taken to calm the yearning of hunger at morning

war is not like august yam, fresh and sweet

nor putting honey in mouth,

A person struck by thunder shall never wait

where they talk of thunder-god

with song of discord and detest

Let there be harmony, and farewell to fight.

Saturday 24 October 2015

Academic Excellence, Entertainment and Misplaced Priority: A Case Study of Nigeria



Over the recent time Nigeria has found itself amidst issues that generate serious concern, and one of them- perhaps the most depressing and migraine-giving- is the remote position our society has debased education to behind frivolity called entertainment. The face which the mis-positioning shows, if care is not taken, education may end up being a mere channel towards having exposure to western ideas; there wouldn't be that morale-boosting impulse that makes it a standard apparatus of societal relevance. We will just wake up one day and be told that education is an imperialist agenda, and that's all.


Thursday 22 October 2015

The Song Review of Kayefi Osha’s Iya Mi O Si Nile Yi

Kayefi


Over the time, the evolution of Nigerian common syndrome, as reflected in the music industry of Nigeria, has given birth to absolutely weird output and incessant outpouring of music that is sometimes full of balderdash, lacking clues of common sense and bereft of intellectual coherency and moral justification.

This quite unfortunate metamorphosis and general downhill, which have seen sanity, morality, and the pivotal need for common national consciousness-- what the musical spirit of the foremost Nigerian maestros like of I.K Dairo, Sunny Ade, Majek Fashek, Ebenezer Obey Fabiyi, promotes -- completely abused and gradually dusted away from the loin of Nigeria’s musical scenes, are perhaps traceable to the lofty rate of moral degeneration and western virus that have dabbled into the industry through the colouration of the contemporary hip-hop music.




The fact is clear that hip-hop is the king; it carries the diadem and holds the heart of global music due to its lingering influences especially among the youths and the encapsulating tuning of musical beat. These influences, without any scintilla of doubt, have caused a serious setback for other genres of local music, which are now trying to blend with it to meet the present taste and demand of relevance.

This fact may be disputed, but the reality of it has led Fuji stars like Wasiu Alabi Pasuma, Sule Alao Malaika ‘collaborate’ with those in the hip-hop music, though they have their fans and often claim they are not intimidated by the strong competitive challenges posed by the incredible emergence of hip-hop music.

However, despite the lamentable situation of craziness which drives the engine-room of local hip-hop music, there seems to be a tiny nucleus of sanity, saving the industry from being completely lost into the wilderness of nonsense engagement and intellectual zero-liness, which the hip-hop symphony of ‘madness’ and orchestration of immoralities might have relegated Nigerian music into.

This nucleus is what gives voice to the likes of Asha whose music has soared beyond the close door border of aesthetic function and entertainment, to real-life message and moral instructions. Undisputedly, this is what I find interesting and exclusively unique in Kayefi’s musical doctrine and exposure.

Kayefi Osha Alapomeji, born Lawal Deborah Olufunmilayo is an emerging voice in the musical entertainment industry, who may have not got many fans and recognition nation-wide, but trying to make good music by going back to the root. The renaissance in her music is clear. I came to know her not too long when a friend of mine sent me her track, Iya mi o si nile yi, (my mother is not in this land).

After first listening, I couldn’t help but listen again and again with rapt attention, ruminating on how the singer whose mezzo-soprano is seemingly appealing, questions the philosophy of common need for survival in unknown land. I didn’t know what makes me love that track, perhaps because I was an undergraduate at the prestigious Obafemi Awolowo University, located ‘in a land that is not mine’ by that time. Or because I see my academic pursuance as a necessitating and incumbent factor of survival in that ‘distant land’, considering the fact that I was writing my final year project work- a significant benchmark of my academic qualification and scholarliness.

But one thing is certain: Kayefi has a perfect mastering of crescendo management in a way that shows her maturity and skillfulness of her craft. She is cool and she knows her words. I browsed about her but couldn’t get much information, except one of her stage performances at Laffmattazs.

Holding Kayefi through the track iya mi o si nile yi , it can be said that she is a trademark of every commoner who leaves his or her land to find a greener pasture somewhere else, in an attempt to return back home with success garnered, and re-learn love and harmony again with forsaken family members.

This shows Kayefi as someone who really understands the plight and problems faced during the course of survival, and the need to come back home, irrespective of what destiny holds in a journey. At the beginning, she seeks for litanies. Hear her:
Intro: hun hun hun Ile labo isinmi oko oo (home is the return of a journey)/ In a journey over the seas/ And I crossed the ocean/ Trying to rectify my daily bread/ In the land that is not mine/ Ebe ni mo be’ri mo o (I beg my head)/ Ma a sin mi lo (see me through)/ Jen kere oko ndele (let the garner the bounty of journey)/ Let all my efforts be crowned with success/ Bi’rin ajo yi (in this journey) Baba is waiting, mama is waiting/ Waiting my return. I need to be focused/ This is not the seconds,/ and I think I am losing my mind/ Iya mi o si nile yio ooo (my mother is not in this land)/ Baba mi o si nile yi ooo (my father is not in this land)/ Ise aje o, lo somo nu bi oko 2x (it’s a need for survival that throws a child like stone)/ Maa dele (I will get back home)

Unarguably, the road of survival is usually rough; a peregrination of survival is usually accustomed with pants and up-and-down, with unanticipated stumbling blocks posed on the way always. Kayefi, already aware of these challenges, expresses the optimism that is usually webbed with difficulty on the trajectory of survival. No wonder, she sings ahead:
Stranger I am, in this land far away from home/ With the cultures and doctrines different from me/ Still I try to cope/ Ebe ni mo be’ri mi o, ori mi sin mi lo (I beg my head, see me through)/ Je n kore oko dele (let me garner the bounty of journey)/ All of the works that I lay my hands on Take me to the top/ Baba is waiting, mama is waiting/ Waiting my return. . .

The optimism expressed by Kayefi can be described as the one that is deep, perhaps Kayefi, before coming to limelight has crossed many seas and valleys in a long-enduring course of survival. Preaching optimism in the face of challenges, she easily projects the message of determination as a key to success, while also maintaining that sometimes, a traveller becomes weary-sore-footed and crestfallen- but remembering home sheds the vista of hope. She sings again:
When I remember bi mo se file si (how I left home)/ Baba running sick, mama running sick * * * Ma dele, ma dele, ma dele ma dele wi o (I will get back home to tell)/ Maa royin fun baba mi oo (I will tell my daddy)/ Ohun oju mi ri lajo (what I saw in my journey)/ Odidere ki ma I ku sajo (an odidere bird doesn’t die in journey)

On personal appraisal Kayefi can be said to be a refection of culture within. The manifestations of tradition and culture, proverb and bi-lingual identity are reflected in her song. If you haven’t seen her, listening to her songs should have revealed that she is someone deeply rooted in (Yoruba) culture. She is a typical African woman who has tried to steer the middle cause between the drying rivulet of African heritage and oozing ocean of western influence.

No wonder, she bears the stage name Osha Kayefi, a name that is still a conundrum to me till today, though Kayefi is a Yoruba nominal marker for 'wonder'. This makes her so peculiar and distinct- someone who can hit big if she maintains the consistency in her musical style.

From the perspective of language and voice, Kayefi Alapomeji, as early mentioned has a subtle but perfect management of voice. One is really impressed by the way she code-switches two languages- English and Yoruba- in a way that reaches a reasonable level of perfection and a certain degree of professional standard. This makes her messages clearer and bolder.

Kayefi simply deserves it for this song, except that we want to lie. However, the way she puts emotion in the song is so extreme that one thinks survival is a common bane. Similarly, she sounds old and crude towards the end of the song, maybe she wants to be who she is- a modern singer with African ideas.


Thursday 15 October 2015

Memoir of Bereavement


My ordeals about death have revealed that the borderline between life and death is like a gap in two flickering of eyes. Because I do wonder why someone not too long seen is reported death; why people just die like that without any transparent augury. I know that is how I will also die one day. I can see death in my shadow, haunting me like a revengeful ghost. I have been waiting for that day when I will be proclaimed death like others whose deaths have preceded mine.

As someone growing in a society where the epiphany of death being close to us than our jugular vein is blatant, I can say I am the testimony and prophecy of death, roaming around the streets drunk, taking souls with bravura. I have garnered manifold memories of bereavement enough to quench my persistent questioning of the vile philosophy that surrounds death. I am a memory of relatives stuck to death by over-speeding vehicles; of friends, electrocuted or of ones butchered by thugs in Ibadan or Lagos while on the mission of survival; of distant family members who slept but never woke up and of somersaulted cars that claimed lives within a minute.

Tuesday 22 September 2015

Waiting


Iyunade left our house eight years ago with her darling look and winsome smiles, set for the sojourn of survival. She dressed in a purple gown and head tie -her best colour match. Everything was purple, including her beaded necklace, except for that pair of shoes made of thick and black Italian leather Tinu bought for her during her last trip to Lagos.

She was waving to my Mama who was at the entrance of our mud house. Mama was also waving back in what I could describe as an emotional mixed feeling. Mama loved her, and she didn't want her go. She loved Mama too but she must go. This was a lady very ambitious. She had been telling me she would travel to Lagos to search for her success, perhaps Providence might look upon her. It was very certain that she was tired of living a village life like me. She wanted to explore her own fortune where it might be in unknown land.

Thursday 9 July 2015

Racism And The Questions Left Unanswered

#Racism and the Questions Left Unanswered#
Black and dehumanization have become inseparable duo since the time we have looked ourselves and discovered that one is black and the other is white. When you read books that talk about oppression and racial segregation against the black, at first you will think every generation of black is meant to suffer slavery and unending racial attack. Then, you will wonder why Negroid been falling victim of globally pronounced white acclaimed domination, even in the recent times.

I have read books with racial ordeals, written by both African writers and the whites. Some are just memorable. They stand indelible. Whenever I read or hear that one black man is molested or killed, the memory that flashes back through my brain is that of fear, survival, search for identity and escapism from the mess of being black. That is why the books like Uncle Tom's Cabin by Harriet Stowe, Tell Freedom and Mine Boy by Peter Abraham, Anne Moody's Coming of Age in Mississippi, Alex Laguma's A Walk in the Night, Athol Fugard's Sizwe Bansi is Dead will always remain forever- they, especially Uncle Tom's Cabin made me shed tears.

We have read enough of Saartjie Baartman, a young big-butted South African woman and a victim of slavery transported all the way from her homeland to France by the white imperialists, her life as a worthless freak show attraction and her death as a remnant of black history in the museum of the white and her final burial courtesy of Nelson Mandela's plea in 2006.

Racism occurs everywhere: in football, church even motor park. Ask footballers like Drogba, Toure, Dani Alves, and Brown Ideye what it takes to be of black, they will have the same ordeals to narrate. Recently, Chelsea Football FC banned some of their fans for life from entering Stamford Bridge because during a Champions League match between Chelsea FC and PSG in France, a number of Blues fans threw a black man out of the train station. It wasn't accidental, they still shouted '' we are racists, yes we are racists!.'' What this shows is that racism is a chronic plague. It is hereditary and traditional!

A little while back, a dear friend, an adept reader Ogunyemi Fisayo didn't believe that there may be a killing out of racism in this century. I was with him discussing writing and general issues and we put lips on the Ferguson and Baltimore attacks. As I made my stand, my friend roared '' No! They are not truly racist attacks. The problem is that whenever there is a black attack case, it is always exaggerated. It is unnecessary call for sympathy and global attention.' To buttress my point, I told him of George Zimmerman and Tryvon Martins issue, the flimsy excuse of the murderer and the justice partially left undone. We left the issue without putting our eggs in the same basket.

Here comes another epiphany. The present South Caroline Emmanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church attack leading to the death of nine black souls is a manifestation of racism. Dylan Roof, the 21 year-old white suspect, already charged with nine counts of murder doesn't show remorse and emotion, even when the families of the victims spread the olive of forgiveness.

The attack is historical, capable of generating racial war in U. S. It has been described as '' not merely a mass shooting, not merely a matter of gun violence, this was a racial hate crime and must be confronted as such.'', while U. S president has described it as an incident that exhumes the memories of ''a dark past.'' But the questions are: when will racism end? Will justice be ever done? When will blacks stop regretting being black?

In U. S alone, the list of the racial attacks against the black is endless. The attack is perpetual. This year alone, I can point out to three. Although there has been attempt to stop the chronic plague, the questions still remain: when will a black man feel the same way his white counterparts feel in United States? When will the blacks have their respite and say: this land belongs to us all? When will the fantasy 'we are all from the same Adam' become a reality?

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